Picture Little Shawn, twirling in ecstasy with the spice girls in their ears, attached to their purple ipod nano (I had convinced myself that loving the colour purple was totally not a queer trait – “Oh I only love the dark purple and not the lighter one that girls like”)… I recently unlocked this veryContinue reading “Little Shawn”
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Dear Nana,
I lost a very special person in my life a couple of weeks ago now, while I am still in a fluster on how I might decompress this, I thought an open letter to Nana would be a great place to start. To my darling ever loving Nana, The thought of you no longer withContinue reading “Dear Nana,”
New year, new commitment
Toward the close of 2022, I was burnt out. It was a year of rapid transformations, new findings, new beginnings, and new friends. While it was an upward stride of new discovery, it was paired with a downward plunge into what I did not want to see. The things I had repressed for two decadesContinue reading “New year, new commitment”
Nails, hair, hips, pray
*Trigger warning: blades/sharp objects* There was always something about nail polish that caught my attention. My nana (my mother’s mother) was a fabulous woman whose uniform was her drawn-on black eyebrows and her bold ruby lips. Occasionally she would dip into her assorted collection of nail polish. Whenever her sisters used to visit from theContinue reading “Nails, hair, hips, pray”
Non-Binary? Yeah.
“Kia ora! As most of you know I am Shawn and I sit across the Human Centered Design and equity teams… and *unexpected need for a deep breath* I am non-binary” Oh god, I have never said that out loud before… I scramble together the rest of my sentences and move on with the objectiveContinue reading “Non-Binary? Yeah. “
Healing my inner child II
Opportunity. That’s all we need to showcase our superpower and spread our caged wings. You cannot expect one to soar in life without giving them the opportunity and the choice to show you their worth. This was brought up at a recent panel where the folks up front were speaking on the challenges of decolonisingContinue reading “Healing my inner child II”
Healing my inner child
“Healing your inner child”… I heard this term very recently and I haven’t been able to shrug it off. I never imagined my inner child as a different being which probably explains why I have always refused to answer the question: “If you could say something to 10-year-old Shawn right now, what would you say?”Continue reading “Healing my inner child”
The boy loves Barbies
Where I grew up, a real boy was preoccupied with cricket or other contact sport, was uninterested in anything remotely creative, and was outside with the other boys in the blistering heat while the girls played wedding inside the house during family parties. I was the oldest cousin on both sides of my family. IContinue reading “The boy loves Barbies”
I faced a demon
A couple of weekends ago I faced a demon, a fear of mine that presented itself in a human form. The kind of fear that sent my body into sharp chills, making my fingertips royal blue with shock. It’s funny how much your body stores reaction from a time when the trauma was first felt,Continue reading “I faced a demon “
Finding Identity
I am not sure if most of you readers have kept up with the recent addition to this world’s extensive list of crises, the plummeting of the already fragile Sri Lankan economy. Being a 16-hour plane journey away from where your roots first saw light brings a very complicated relationship with finding one’s identity (well forContinue reading “Finding Identity”
Ceylon's Finest 